Today, my season began to change. I no longer looked out the foggy windows of life. Today the light of the future made the shadows of my past drift away. So many things happen when my season changes. I shed (or gain) a few pounds, I do something drastic to my hair, but most importantly I shed the dead weight I happened to pick up during the fall and winter. You never know who your dead weight is until you have the opportunity to drop it.
For example I love my family with every ounce of me, however when it came to dealing with a traumatic time in my life some of my family members abandoned me. Granted, you can never expect for someone to react the way you want them to when it comes to the news that I gave them. However I did expect their support and they have yet to provide it. So in turn they were dropped. I still love them and I still pray for them. Like they say God don’t like ugly, but my “relationship” that I once had with them has been annulled.
A second example, I had a mentor that I loved dearly. This person was like the wind beneath my wings I looked up to them, but then their dark side revealed itself. Now, I tend to see the light more than the darkness when it comes to a person. But, when I had found out that this person was deceiving others to believe untruthful things about me and was also attempting to sabotage my progress I was faced with a decision I never thought I would have to make. So you guessed it…this person was dropped immediately. I’m still professional and I still maintain class, but all extra curricular activities I did with this person have ceased.
Dropping these relationships, in addition to others, was extremely tough for me. When I befriend or engage in any type of relationship whether it is family, friends, sorority sister, or co worker I engage with all the love I have in my heart. People will hurt you, their only human, but when people continue to hurt you after you have addressed that hurt, well….they don’t deserve your love anyway. I’m grieving in a sense, because the relationships I thought I had with these people were killed by the reality of who they truly are. For this reason I’m reluctant when my season begins to change. I tend to get comfortable with how things are and attempt to brush things aside knowing they are clear warning signs. But I believe that God created human beings to be a reflection of his work. Look at nature for example. The trees go through their hibernation stage where they are ugly, dried, and brittle from the whipping of the winds and frigidness of the temps; just like these trees we as human beings go through our stage of hibernation. We go through our tasks and trials only to blossom beautifully when the season changes. This season God has taught me that I need people in my life who will be anchors. We will both have storms in our lives that will sway and challenge us and we will both need to know that in the midst of it all I am here.
Now God and I haven’t had the best of relationships, he’s still working on me, however I do believe that God is showing me how things are when I am in control and how things are when HE is in control. And I must say I like it better when God takes the wheel. There’s a song that says, “It’s a new season it’s a new day a fresh anointing is flowing my way, it’s a season of power and prosperity, there’s a new season coming for me.” I whole heartedly believe this for me and for you. So get ready here comes your new season and I look forward to seeing what the “Spring” brings to life for you!
